I realized today was the third of July already and it kind of spun me out. Time sure doesn’t wait for anyone eh. So where did June go? I don’t know .:( Continue reading “July Already?”
My spiritual fight has many ups and downs. I was always in a place of questioning God’s love. If God is in control how can He allow hardship?? There are times i grow weary from the journey.. when i went through my period of depression (poor decisions, medical issues, finances, broken relationships) I was just close to giving up. Adversity is hard to endure and can be even harder to understand. Suicide then was my only option to end up everything (the struggle and the pain)…….
‘Overwhelmed with worry and doubt’ -is what my heart is feeling right now. I always feel like I’m just failing God. My faith is faltering and giving up has always been an option. This is who I am, when difficult time comes, it is easy for me to doubt and grow overwhelmed thinking it’s never going to work out. It is so frustrating knowing that my faith in God is unstable. Why I can’t throw all these doubts away? I have been missing out life’s great opportunities all because of doubt. How can I doubt God’s love? How can I doubt His faithfulness? When storms of life surrounds me, it’s hard for me to rely on God’s promises. I am drawing myself in fear and worry instead of getting in touch with Him. A lot of times i tried to fix things my way, I didn’t allow God to take control of my situation.
Doubt/doubting is toxic, it is poisonous and it is the thing that keeps on destroying my faith over and over. It is easy for me to abandon my spiritual disciplines every time my heart is in doubt. It is the ‘doubt’ in my heart that keeps me from fully believing and trusting God’s faithfulness. -and I’m scared! I’ve got a heart full of doubt.
Hey, I’m still alive and back with another life lately post. I didn’t get to post my happenings for a couple of weeks… just that I got so busy with school and I also had some personal responsibilities to deal with. Continue reading “Life lately and not so lately”
July 28, 2015
It was Sunday midnight (July 27) when my long-time friend Marjorie texted me, inviting me to join them for dinner the following day. I was soo excited, knowing that Leslie and Maricar will be there too. After high school graduation we only had a couple of chances seeing each other. Continue reading “highschool-best-buddies”
Can’t believe 2015 is already half over and pretty much life has been mixed up lately….. #inBullets Continue reading “Latterly”
When I first set foot in the ‘City of Love’, I was terrified that I may not be able to find a good place to stay and friends to hang out with. Not that I don’t know somebody or anyone, in-fact I have lots of relatives in Iloilo and mostly from my father’s side which I haven’t meet until I came there for college. Continue reading “Throwing it back to the glory dorm days”