My spiritual fight has many ups and downs. I was always in a place of questioning God’s love. If God is in control how can He allow hardship?? There are times i grow weary from the journey.. when i went through my period of depression (poor decisions, medical issues, finances, broken relationships) I was just close to giving up. Adversity is hard to endure and can be even harder to understand. Suicide then was my only option to end up everything (the struggle and the pain)…….