Reflection: When in Doubt

‘Overwhelmed with worry and doubt’ -is what my heart is feeling right now. I always feel like I’m just failing God. My faith is faltering and giving up has always been an option. This is who I am, when difficult time comes, it is easy for me to doubt and grow overwhelmed thinking it’s never going to work out. It is so frustrating knowing that my faith in God is unstable. Why I can’t throw all these doubts away? I have been missing out life’s great opportunities all because of doubt. How can I doubt God’s love? How can I doubt His faithfulness? When storms of life surrounds me, it’s hard for me to rely on God’s promises. I am drawing myself in fear and worry instead of getting in touch with Him. A lot of times i tried to fix things my way, I didn’t allow God to take control of my situation.

Doubt/doubting is toxic, it is poisonous and it is the thing that keeps on destroying my faith over and over. It is easy for me to abandon my spiritual disciplines every time my heart is in doubt. It is the ‘doubt’ in my heart that keeps me from fully believing and trusting God’s faithfulness. -and I’m scared! I’ve got a heart full of doubt.